hey nazareth! love's supposed to hurt!

i've been reading this book, dark nights of the soul, by thomas moore, and ran across a particular paragraph that really spoke to me. i just hope i start to believe it...

“Clearly, love is not about making you happy. It is a form of initiation that may radically transform you, making you more of who you are but less of who you have been. If you don’t realize that you are walking on coals and running the gauntlet and surviving the wilderness in quest of a vision – all within the confines of a simple human relationship – you could be undone by it. Love gives you a sense of meaning, but it asks a price. It will make you into the person you are called to be, but only if you endure its pains and allow it to empty you as much as it fills you.”

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hi. i'm jonah. i live in los angeles, i'm 28 years old, and i'm lost.

i feel a little like that other jonah. i've been running from something my whole life, ignoring my destiny, and escaping to the warm cabin of someone else's ship.

however, unlike the other jonah, i don't know exactly what i'm running from. what is it about myself or about my true calling that's so frightening for me to face?

well... now that i have been tossed from the ship, i'm lost at sea. that's right. i told you i'm lost, didn't i?

the only thing left to do now is just pray for my whale.